This interview is causing a lot of talk in the fandom. Bill talks about how sad he is sometimes. We relate a lot and somehow, it makes him seem more real, you know? Hope you enjoy this. <3 Translation thanks to midorino from UK
BILL: “I WANTED TO DROP EVERYTHING!”
Bill has never been in a more thoughtful mood! Only in BRAVO the Tokio Hotel front man reveals how sad he is sometimes.
A recording studio, hidden away in a backyard in Berlin-Schönefeld. Together with BRAVO reader Nora (13) Bill Kaulitz (20) is currently standing inside a recording booth on the first floor of the building. She won a part in “Arthur and the Invisibles 2” (in cinemas from 26th November 2009) with BRAVO. Bill dubs the main character, Arthur. Though for now the Tokio Hotel singer is taking care of Nora, supporting her while recording. Both of them are getting along well, Bill is having lots of fun, is laughing all the time. However, he suddenly shows a totally different side [to himself] during the BRAVO interview that’s following…
Bill, are you happy?
I’m totally happy with my career. Our album “Humanoid” is being received incredibly well. We’re more successful with it in the charts than with our last album in most European countries! I wished my private life would go just as well. I don’t know what I need to be content – however, I’m not.
Any idea why it’s like that?
Maybe because I’ve got no time to really be happy about what I’ve experienced. I can’t celebrate or enjoy our success because I’ve always got something new to do. And I’m still missing love. Unfortunately…
How can you find it? Can we help?
I just don’t know either. (sighs) There are many people trying to find a partner on reality shows. However, “Bill in Love” would absolutely not be for me. To build up trust with a girl in front of a camera – that doesn’t work.. Unfortunately it’s very unlikely that I’ll meet someone privately just like that. After all I’m not going outside, not even shopping!
And why don’t you just escape your world for once and go out without securities?
To be honest I don’t even want to try it, am even scared of it! It’s difficult for me to go to a club by myself, especially in Europe. Even with securities it very much feels like a photo shoot or a signing session to me. Those times I feel like an animal in a zoo. However, that’s of course part of being a celeb. Maybe I’ll meet someone through my job one day – who knows…? If love really happens to come along, it’ll probably be totally random.
Are you at least happy with yourself?
Sometimes I can’t stand myself at all. I don’t watch performances of myself – I can’t stand myself on TV. I’m also annoyed that I’m constantly thinking about something. That I’m agitated and not relaxed so often. I always check twice whether the door is locked. [I] Have a look around ten times [to see] whether I really haven’t forgotten anything. I think I just have to get more relaxed.
Are you afraid of the future?
Yes. Who knows what I’ll be doing in five or ten years? It would be my nightmare to envision having an office job in front of a computer. That just isn’t for me. Even back in school I’ve already had an issue with authority. I just can’t listen to anyone. I’m hoping that I’ll always be able to be my own boss.
Do you also lose it sometimes – or are you more like constantly being nice?
I’m very emotionally charged, [and] have already yelled at the guys or other members of the team often if something doesn’t go right or isn’t to my liking.
What does an argument between Tokio Hotel actually look like?
In the past we’ve also been beating each other. Nowadays we’re more about mind games…
Really?! What does that look like?
In that case we don’t talk to each other anymore. Or we deliberately cancel somebody else’s appointments: If I’m really looking forward to a photo shooting and Tom’s mad at me, he’ll secretly cancel it. However, any trouble is mostly gone the following day.
Has anyone of you ever said “I’ve had enough! I quit!” when you were fighting?
Nobody has said it out loud yet but every one of us has had that thought already! There have also been moments when I thought: I’m not doing this anymore, I’m dropping everything! And this still happens: that I’m thinking, I just want to have time to myself.
What kind of situations are the times everything gets too much for you?
When I’m at a loss or I’m running out of ideas. Then there’s also days I just want to pack my things—and would rather not hear anything about the band anymore for a year. However, in the end I think about the fans again, [and] about the strength they give us and how much fun it actually is for me to be the front man of Tokio Hotel.
© BRAVO
Photo Captions
Top picture (Nora/Bill): BRAVO winner Nora got a dubbing part in the animated film “Arthur and the Invisibles 2” – Bill is helping her during the recordings.
Small band picture: Band colleagues and true friends: the Tokios Gustav (21), Bill (20), Tom (20) and Georg (22, pictured from left)
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Small Bill picture: Bill dubs the character Arthur. He’s having a blast doing so. However, he’s not always in such a good mood like here…
Big Bill picture: Bill from Tokio Hotel (“Lass uns laufen”/”World behind my Wall”) [being] very serious: “Sometimes I’m feeling very lonely!”
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Oh Bill…
Us fans love you very much, same goes for Tom and Georg and Gustav.
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Reading this article just hurts my heart. That part about “not being content” really gets to me. I can’t bear to see Bill in so much pain. He’s such a beautiful soul with a wonderful heart. He gives us five hundred thousand percent eveytime, well all the guys do. They are forever thinking about us fans. It’s almost as if they are being punished for having a dream of sharing their music with the world. I wish that I could help them in some way, especially Bill. Space and time for himself once in a while is really not alot to ask.
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this only show that we every one needs to give him some space to be a normal person not the singer so that he can at least lead a bit of a normal life
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omg Biiiiiiilllllll<3 we love you soooo much.
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I think this was one of the most genuine interviews ever. I really love his honesty.
Gosh Nora is sooo lucky!!
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I’LL DATE YOU BILL!!! lol jk i wish he would find a girl though i would LOVE to see him happy! :/
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oh my gosh! D8 Por Bill! That is so sad! I feel so sorry for him! I dont want him to be sad, gosh, this made me tear up! It’s weird being smacked in the face with the fact that they actually dont get along, it should have accured to me but it didnt. well, I am supportive, and I hope he finds love and happiness and all that
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I totally agree with you. When I got to the question, “Do you also lose it sometimes – or are you more like constantly being nice?” I got so scared! I don’t even want Bill to feel miserable all the time! We as fans will always support him no matter what so let love come to you, Bill, and don’t worry about a thing! :)
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Wow thats an extremely raw interview. That is what you call, real, my friends. No “cute!” rockstar, Bill for you here. This is the mature, reality that this twenty year old kid is going through. I read it, and had an emotional response to the interview..not physically as in tears or anything, but I felt it, you know? Its completely relate-able and if I read this from anybody, even if it wasn’t Bill, who I admire as a talented and all around good person, I’d wish I could help them.
Always, always I’m thinking about the guys and their fans. Each time I see a video with all those girls screaming, each time I read a comment with “OMG HE’S SO HAWT!”, I think…”man, it must be hard.” I want to be a fan that goes out and supports them and goes to shows and signings, but sometimes I wish they could get some breathing room. Like if I saw Bill walking down the street, I’d gasp and probably couldn’t contain from staring out of shock, but I’d be content with staying where I stand. I dont know him, so I dont feel completely comfortable to go up and talk to him, aside from the fact that he needs space too.
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wow that is exactly how i feel about there situation…i want to reach out and help but the best thing one can do for them is give them space.
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that article made me sad…
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bill helping the girl at the studio.. what a cute gentleman =)
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Aww this stuff makes us all realize that no one is perfect although this band probably comes pretty close. And that everyone famous or not have their days…and I think he kinda dedicated the song World Behond My Wall to all those people who are afraid to take the risk and make mistakes. But I get this sinking feeling when you hear that he isn’t happy at home or with his personal/love life. I think we should send him a giant pizza with gummy bears on it. I hope he finds love soon =]
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poor Bill.
i wish him the best. :)
ily Bill!
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This really makes me sad! I wish there was something we could do but we can’t, that’s the bad part of their fame, it really sucks for them. It’s normal to want to quit something when it gets that bad, but I admire them so much because if I was in their situation I would have had a break down already. I would have probably beaten up a paparazzi or two. But Bill should know that thanks to Him and Tom and Georg and Gustav, a lot of us have been the happiest we’ve ever been, they’ve saced so many lives and gives us a reason to smile everyday.
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Bill i love you so much and no matter what happens i will always be there for you. i understand what you’r going though and yas i know it hurts to think about it but you need too be strong! Ich libie dich
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A fanaction should commence from all the TH fans in the world, to tell Bill that we’re always by his side, no matter what.
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we should all get together and throw him a party for being the best rockstar in the world and no matter what happens we’ll be there for him.
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Count me inn!! :D
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And me=D
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meh 2!!!
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he just mention that the attention drives him nuts sometimes. all he wants is some space once in a while.
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hey if ur going to throw a party for him make sure the rooom is big because he needs his own space